HELP
Posted: Tue Apr 14, 2015 6:33 pm
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Hi my name is derek. About a month and a half ago I was watching a follower of jesus' channel on youtoube and he said that smoking cigarettes would bring you to hell. For years I have smoked cigarettes and drank, and even smoked a lot of pot. My whole life I have considered myself a christian walking in faith. Anyways I made the decision to quit smoking that night and decided to have one last cigarette. Before i puffed it i heard a voice in my head saying that if smoke that cigarette I'd never enter the kingdom of heaven. Im not sure if I made up this voice in my head because I felt guilty smoking it or if it was satan or if it was god. When i think about it, it gives me tons of anxiety. my head tells me it was god. because I was enlightened to the fact that smoking is evil. And thoughts come into my mind of essau and how he sold his birthright for a bowl of soup. It just terrifies me to think that maybe that was a message from god. Ever since that night I have turned from tobacco, and from alcohol and pot. its been 2 months now and i have no desire to return to those things. But i still get very scared that the voice may have been from god, and that I'm eternally doomed. I desperately seek jesus. I love the lord and what is good. I don't feel saved but at times i do. Can you give me your opinion on this matter.
P.S. I have to say since that voice in my head, I have become very humbled, and emersed myself in the word of god. I have also asked god for forgiveness of a lot of the evil that I have done over the years. I sincerely want to change my life and be a child of god.
Hi my name is derek. About a month and a half ago I was watching a follower of jesus' channel on youtoube and he said that smoking cigarettes would bring you to hell. For years I have smoked cigarettes and drank, and even smoked a lot of pot. My whole life I have considered myself a christian walking in faith. Anyways I made the decision to quit smoking that night and decided to have one last cigarette. Before i puffed it i heard a voice in my head saying that if smoke that cigarette I'd never enter the kingdom of heaven. Im not sure if I made up this voice in my head because I felt guilty smoking it or if it was satan or if it was god. When i think about it, it gives me tons of anxiety. my head tells me it was god. because I was enlightened to the fact that smoking is evil. And thoughts come into my mind of essau and how he sold his birthright for a bowl of soup. It just terrifies me to think that maybe that was a message from god. Ever since that night I have turned from tobacco, and from alcohol and pot. its been 2 months now and i have no desire to return to those things. But i still get very scared that the voice may have been from god, and that I'm eternally doomed. I desperately seek jesus. I love the lord and what is good. I don't feel saved but at times i do. Can you give me your opinion on this matter.
P.S. I have to say since that voice in my head, I have become very humbled, and emersed myself in the word of god. I have also asked god for forgiveness of a lot of the evil that I have done over the years. I sincerely want to change my life and be a child of god.