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Hi , my name is michael banach , an i pray that you recieve this, ok so ive spirling out of control an i dont lnow what to do . The last 5 months of my life have changed me forever, so ive been a drug addicted since 14 im almost 22 now . I had went to seek help through man for my drug addiction, wich enslaved me to massive sin an poverty , i got sober an it dawned on me that god an jesus christ is the only way out , i realized my sin was killimg me , an i came across a website am a group of people that cast out demons , an they casted demons out of me an my life got better , nothing mattered , i cut out all tv an all secular things , then within two months i gave into porn , an i tried to fight it an thought i escaped an knew what i was doimg was wrong , but it got worse , i eventually started slowley week after week doing it more an fell worse an started drugs again an also stealimg again an lieng, in this last week i did cocaine again an now my heart hurts an its this undescrible paim, i ask god to forgive me but then fall into temtptaion an presumptuous sin an it seems impossible to return to where i was , i realize america is babylon an that its gonna be destroyed , have i tasted the gift of god an powers to come as hebrews 6 talks of ? Am i cast away an in reborbate mind? I know what im doimg is wromg but i keep doing it , gods wrath awaits me , i know i must forsake all but it seems impossible to get back where i was , i cant stop smoking cigs again an my mind feels blocked along with my heart that has this pain an hardness in it an wont leave, im in total poverty an ruin, i feel mo escape from the almighty wrath of jesus christ , what can i do? I feel lost truly

I feel utterly lost. My name is michael , an ive been in distress for a time now . 5 months ago i turned from ways an stumbled across god an realized my sin. I met a group that cast out demons an i has demons cast out any life got better, nothing mattered but serving jesus, i cut out the world , i left its ways , i left behind my drug use an porn use an everything an stayed with this group, as time went on i learned to cast out spirits an more an more how pridful i was as weeks went on, then came the fall. I fell into porn an masterbation, an i hated it an cryed out. Then in got worse in time weeks would pass without it an then bam i feel into it again, an then it got worse i did drugs again, cocaine always ruled me , an just this past week i felt i almost had a heart attack, now my heart feels hard an faulty, im in poverty, an utter ruin , i dont know how to turn to god, have i fallen into hebrews 6 an tasted the gift of god an powers to come ? I knoe what im doing is wrong but i feel my escape i cant cry an i try to stay away from the cigs an drugs but i cant , am i lost forever ? Is gods grace lifted from me ?i feel u guys are true in christ an i just cant seem to find jesus , i know its all or nothing, my heart feels litterally like a ticking time bomb, did god place in me a heart ready to pop? His wrath is upon me . I dont know what to do. Also i realize america is soon to destruction, i have no faith at this moment in time an cant seem to escape my ruins. What do i do? Ifeel its to late.

“And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free” (John 8:32 MKJV).

Hi Michael,

You write: “i realized my sin was killimg me , an i came across a website am a group of people that cast out demons , an they casted demons out of me an my life got better , nothing mattered , i cut out all tv an all secular things , then within two months i gave into porn , an i tried to fight it an thought i escaped an knew what i was doimg was wrong , but it got worse….”

You didn't need an exorcism - you needed Repentance, and still do. It's not too late. When you turn from your sins and from yourself to the Lord Jesus Christ, Whom we preach, all powers of hell will be dealt with in due course. Devils have no power over anyone, except as determined by God, so you can rest assured He's in complete control and your fate is entirely in His hands.

You need to believe He is just and He is gracious, as outlined in the Bible and our writings. Read as much as you can on our site, and believe those things we speak as the Word of God, which are from Him, in harmony with His Scriptures.

Why focus on future wrath? You're in hell presently and now is the time to believe God and act on what He says. Stop diverting your attention from your situation and responsibilities by thinking about America being Babylon and headed for destruction. You're the one in confusion, with destruction already present and consuming you.

Some writings, but don't limit yourself to these:

Acceptance
The Church
The Case for Coming Out
Confession of Sin
The Baptism in the Holy Spirit
The Cross - Only the Death Sentence Will Avail
Demons and Mental Illness
Forgiveness
The Gathering
God Heals Today, His Way
The Good News
Good Riddance to Depression
Here Is the Way It Is
Holy Waters
How One Is Saved
Obedience
Opinion
Prayer
Repentance
So You Want to Walk with Jesus
Victims and Perpetrators
We Want You to Know...
What Is Faith?
What It Means to Be Born Again
The Worship of God
The Wrath of God

What happened to the group that prayed for you, whom you were involved with some time afterwards? What are they telling you?

Paul and Victor