I do not want to go back to my sin
Posted: Fri Sep 11, 2015 5:41 pm
Dear, Victor
My Mother and Grandmother read me bible stories from my earliest memories.
I always enjoyed them. Most of them Old Testament that I can remember.
Stories of Adam and Eve, Abraham, Noah, and Samson. I especially loved the story of Samson. His strength, and power, but unlike the others the way his life ended stuck with me.
I so wanted him to go off into the sunset, happy and un beaten. But as we both know that is not the case.
When I was a teenager my mother started our family in the Catholic Church. Immediately I felt something wasn't right. I did not understand certain things. But I began to read the bible for my self. I loved what Jesus did. His acts brought me to tears nearly every time. Though I did have some hang ups with some of what he did,(turning the other cheek), eventually my heart melted towards him.
We eventually left the Catholic Church as a family.
Then came "saved" as others have put it. "Have you been saved?"" Do you know what Jesus wants from you?" "Accept Jesus into your heart"
"Repent and be saved"
I rejected water baptism, I did not think that Jesus would enter me that way.
I have never liked church.
I continued to study the bible myself but got discouraged. Much of the books confused me. I wanted Paul or Peter or John or even Stephen. I asked myself, where are these men? Why is no one around like them today? Certainly The Lord resides in them. But none of these pastors seem to be like them.
Long story short, I have been reading your website and have been crying of and on for 4 days. So hard the first day my head hurt for a whole day.
I do not want to go back to my sin. And so want Jesus to speak to me.
I texted my girlfriend today. I told her I will not go on sinning.
She was scared. I do not know if she understands.
My Mother and Grandmother read me bible stories from my earliest memories.
I always enjoyed them. Most of them Old Testament that I can remember.
Stories of Adam and Eve, Abraham, Noah, and Samson. I especially loved the story of Samson. His strength, and power, but unlike the others the way his life ended stuck with me.
I so wanted him to go off into the sunset, happy and un beaten. But as we both know that is not the case.
When I was a teenager my mother started our family in the Catholic Church. Immediately I felt something wasn't right. I did not understand certain things. But I began to read the bible for my self. I loved what Jesus did. His acts brought me to tears nearly every time. Though I did have some hang ups with some of what he did,(turning the other cheek), eventually my heart melted towards him.
We eventually left the Catholic Church as a family.
Then came "saved" as others have put it. "Have you been saved?"" Do you know what Jesus wants from you?" "Accept Jesus into your heart"
"Repent and be saved"
I rejected water baptism, I did not think that Jesus would enter me that way.
I have never liked church.
I continued to study the bible myself but got discouraged. Much of the books confused me. I wanted Paul or Peter or John or even Stephen. I asked myself, where are these men? Why is no one around like them today? Certainly The Lord resides in them. But none of these pastors seem to be like them.
Long story short, I have been reading your website and have been crying of and on for 4 days. So hard the first day my head hurt for a whole day.
I do not want to go back to my sin. And so want Jesus to speak to me.
I texted my girlfriend today. I told her I will not go on sinning.
She was scared. I do not know if she understands.