Hi Del, Paul here.
I see you sent us your second recent email shortly after receiving Victor's reply to your first one. In this new letter you refer to things brought up in past correspondence. But you hadn't let us know of our previous correspondence in your first recent letter (we write to many people, and I see your original emails were sent from another address).
Have you ever gone back to read over what we wrote to you originally? You didn't believe what we said to you at the time. You were stuck on believing lies, which you can't simply blame on being taught bad doctrine, because we only insist on believing lies about God and ourselves when corrupt and unrepentant.
Here's the former correspondence, starting with your initial email:
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Subject: Help in understanding.
From: Del
To: The Path of Truth
Date: 2/12/2015 8:37 PM
I see you believe in the restoration of all things according to what I've read on your site.
Ok my question is about the bible speaks of blasphemy of the Holy Spirit and that it would not be forgiven in this world or the world to come. Now weather you believe this or not, I recently was actually called to be part of the elect. Yeah kinda blew me out of the water too. Especially since I know of all the wrong I've done in my life, in which I'd never tell anyone.
So anyway God gave me a calling which involved living my wife and son to go and preach the word to the lost in a large city about an hour from me. I wrestled hard with this with God, wondering what would happen to my wife and son had I left. He told me just to take what I had on, leave my wallet and cell phone behind. He told me that He would make everything work out. Well this was two days before Christmas eve. I'm a very traditional (worldy) guy and wanted to spend the holidays with my family.
Well to make a long story short, I disobeyed God. The whole two days I was a basket case. I tried to use scriptures to say to use marriage for means not to go. Anyway the morning of Christmas eve I had fallen asleep on the couch. When I opened my eyes I seen a small ring of fire leave me. I know it was the Spirit of God leaving me. The love and compassion I had before the Spirit left me was like no other. People of all races and no matter their financial status didn't matter. I loved them all, they are in fact God's people.
I didn't realize that what I was doing by disobedience was going to quench the Spirit. I got to far ahead of Christ in my own ignorance. I asked Him for something I didn't realize how dumb I was till after this occurred. I had ask Him if me and my wife and son could sit with Him after He came back for us. I actually felt the water of life springing up from my stomach. I was raised strict pentecostal all my life. Though I knew I didn't really understand all the tongues and never did it, I was taught that making fun of those doing it was blasphemy of the Holy Spirit.
I started asking God to tear down walls of false teachings and build me up with His righteousness. This is where I really began to see God opening up doors and allowing me to see things I never had before. It was amazing. Don't get me wrong here, I still had a long way to go in learning but my walk was short lived due to this disobedience.
After my disobedience, I became a nut case. I thought there was no hope for me. I begged God to forgive me and still to this day I feel like my prayers are hitting the ceiling and bouncing right back at me. I ended up trying to kill myself (which is way out of my character.) I ended up in a mental hospital for 3 days. My teachings was that I was going to burn in hell forever and ever more for the thing I did wrong.
I never asked God while my communication was so strong and open with Him if he'll was a place of eternal torture, it just didn't cross my mind cause I thought it was so secure in Him at that moment in time. I'm still scared to death. The word says that for those who have been enlightened and been partakers of the Holy Spirit and then turn away that it would be impossible to renew them again seems how they crucify the son of God again and put Him to an open shame. Hebrews chapter 6 I believe.
It also says in Hebrews 10:26-29 KJV
For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins, But a certain fearful looking for of judgment and fiery indignation, which shall devour the adversaries. He that despised Moses' law died without mercy under two or three witnesses: Of how much sorer punishment, suppose ye, shall he be thought worthy, who hath trodden under foot the Son of God, and hath counted the blood of the covenant, wherewith he was sanctified, an unholy thing, and hath done despite unto the Spirit of grace?
Now I didn't know I was committing this sin but evidently I was. I have asked God to please forgive me like I said but my open communication with Him isn't there. I'd rather just not exist anymore then burn forever. I've often thought to myself, if one of my kids did something terrible and against me, would I ever want to stick them in a hot oven and suppose they couldn't die but feel never ending pain? NO WAY! I would discipline them of course but not make them endure torturous pain forever nor would I kill them either.
I guess what I'm asking here is, is this sorer punishment that I'm obviously going to endure going to be to my death according to what you believe the word says or is it more of a Father discipline that will ultimately straighten me out and bring me home with my living God? I miss His awesome presence! There is nothing in this world like it. Wish I could go back and be obedient when He called on me. Thanks for you reply in advance. Hope this doesn't sound like I'm a crazy nut like some seem to think I am. Thanks for any help you can offer.
Del
From: Paul Cohen
Sent: Tuesday, February 17, 2015 9:04 AM
To: Del
Cc: Victor Hafichuk
Subject: Re: Help in understanding.
Hi Del,
That wasn't the Lord telling you to go preach in the big city near you. He doesn't send out people who haven't been taught and prepared by Him. You say of yourself:
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So anyway God gave me a calling which involved living [leaving?] my wife and son to go and preach the word to the lost in a large city about an hour from me. I wrestled hard with this with God, wondering what would happen to my wife and son had I left. He told me just to take what I had on, leave my wallet and cell phone behind. He told me that He would make everything work out. Well this was two days before Christmas eve. I'm a very traditional (worldy) guy and wanted to spend the holidays with my family.”
God doesn't send out “worldly” guys. He sends out His ministers who aren't of this world. Jesus said of His disciples:
John 17:13-16 MKJV
(13) And now I come to You, and these things I speak in the world that they might have My joy fulfilled in them.
(14) I have given them Your Word,
and the world has hated them because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world.
(15) I do not pray for You to take them out of the world, but for You to keep them from the evil.
(16)
They are not of the world,
even as I am not of the world.
Christmas is of this world, celebrating the birth of the anti-Christ. Did you know that? Read
That Devilish Spirit of Christmas, all the way to the bottom and the associated links, if you need to hear more.
1 John 2:15-17 MKJV
(15) Do not love the world, nor the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him,
(16) because all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world.
(17) And the world passes away, and the lust of it, but he who does the will of God abides forever.
The commandment and the particulars you heard were your imagination, Del, or a devil, likely the latter, which are prevalent in Pentecostal religious settings. Those are like virus hotbeds frequented by people with little or no immunity. That explains the great feelings and euphoric love, which like drugs, wears off and leaves you much worse off than before you imbibed. What you're looking for now isn't God, but to get your “high” back. You need
repentance and the cleansing of His Word that comes when you start walking by
faith in the truth.
You also wrote:
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Now weather you believe this or not, I recently was actually called to be part of the elect. Yeah kinda blew me out of the water too. Especially since I know of all the wrong I've done in my life, in which I'd never tell anyone.
If that was a calling of God, you would have experienced repentance and sanctification, two things absent in your testimony here (not just in word, but in spirit and substance).
And God isn't the tormenting, petulant tyrant described by your fears. Far, far from it. Consider Jonah, and how God dealt with him in his refusal to obey. Did He not show mercy and talk to Jonah about what was happening? But as I said, God hasn't been in this matter of yours. It's been devils playing with you. You've been raised and immersed in false religion with its many
Diabolical Doctrines, adding to your torment.
So no, Del, you didn't blaspheme against the Holy Spirit, except perhaps in an unknowing, unconscious way by your nature, which has yet to be changed. And blasphemers can be forgiven, as with Saul of Tarsus, a self-confessed former blasphemer who also caused others to blaspheme.
I'll copy something here we wrote to someone else on blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. As you've been immersed in falsehood, now you need to be immersed in the truth. The Lord has brought you here because He is here, speaking the truth you need to hear and believe.
We begin with a letter from Jeff:
I have read about how the church teaches about hell and lake of fire and so on. How does blasphemy of the Holy Spirit come into play? If all will be cleansed with the fire of God in this world or the next what about those guilty of that sin? Will those people be reunited with God after the lake of fire or will they annihilate? Maybe you or Paul could do a lesson on what that is for today b/c I only know from knowledge not wisdom. Some say its not even possible to commit that sin today but only Jesus' time.
Jeff
Hi Jeff, Paul here. You ask about blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. Here's something from our site (
God: All Knowing AND All Doing), in answer to your question in the given context. We're replying to someone who brought up the notion of there
never being forgiveness for those who blaspheme against the Holy Spirit, thinking that was a valid objection to the ultimate reconciliation of all men.
Victor: If you think there is never but never forgiveness for blasphemy against the Holy Spirit, let me ask you this: Do you not believe that Saul of Tarsus was blaspheming and even causing others to blaspheme? Here is his testimony:
“And I punished them often in every synagogue; I compelled them to blaspheme; and being exceedingly furious against them, I persecuted them even to the outside cities” (Acts 26:11 MKJV).
He called himself the “chief of sinners.” How could he truthfully call himself such if he had not committed the chiefest of sins?
[Added comment: And we know that the Lord turned Paul, even making him an example of how He came into the world to save sinners!]
Paul: Using the Young's Literal Translation, you will see that the words translated in the King James and elsewhere as “eternal damnation” mean something much different than what men commonly suppose they mean.
“Verily I say to you, that all the sins shall be forgiven to the sons of men, and evil speakings with which they might speak evil, but whoever may speak evil in regard to the Holy Spirit has not forgiveness--to the age, but is in danger of age-during judgment” (Mark 3:28-29 YLT).
If a man speaks against me, I may forgive him. If a man speaks against the work of the Holy Spirit in or through me, I cannot forgive him. That man is blaspheming against God, and only “age-during judgment” can deal with that.
It was this kind of judgment that the Lord spoke of to the Pharisees, who also blasphemed the Holy Spirit:
“Serpents! Brood of vipers! How may you escape from the judgment of the Gehenna?” (Matthew 23:33 YLT).
In other words, they couldn't escape. They couldn't be reconciled presently to God as were others, like the tax collectors and whores who confessed their sins, of whom the Lord said to the blaspheming religious:
“Truly I say to you that the tax collectors and the harlots go into the Kingdom of God before you” (Matthew 21:31 MKJV).
Those whom the blasphemers disdained would enter
before them. That means they (the blasphemers) would enter later. How so? They would be judged in Gehenna by fire, as all men are (Mark 9:49). They would suffer the full fruits of their ways, to the end that they might be corrected (God's holy essence and intent of judgment), not tormented or destroyed without hope (man's unholy and vindictive essence and intent of his judgment). While they couldn't be forgiven then and there, the Lord also specifically and categorically forgave them, these same who crucified Him, on the cross:
“And Jesus said, Father, forgive them, for they have not known what they do” (Luke 23:34 YLT).
What you're saying is that men can choose to accept or reject His forgiveness. What we're showing you in the writings and from many Scriptures, is that no one can resist His will. If He determines that all should come to repentance, entering into the forgiveness He has made good by His blood shed for us, then so it will happen.
We are giving God His due glory, whereas you, though you don't know or recognize it, are giving men the glory. If it is up to men to “accept” Jesus Christ as the Son of God, then men have the glory, having somewhat whereof to boast, as you do. If it is up to God to turn a sinner to Himself, then God has the glory. It's that simple.
You bring up the verses in Revelation 16, where men blasphemed God when He brought plagues on them, as if to say that eternal torment is the end condition of these men. Who says that is so? It doesn't say it there. You're reading things into it, using your doctrine to interpret the Bible. Remember; let the Bible form your doctrine rather than the other way around. It also says this in Revelation, after the 144,000 are sealed by God:
“After this I looked, and a vast host appeared,
which it was impossible for anyone to count, gathered out of every nation and from all tribes and peoples and languages, standing before the throne and before the Lamb, clothed in long white robes, and carrying palm-branches in their hands. In loud voices they were exclaiming, It is to our God Who is seated on the throne, and to the Lamb, that we owe our salvation!” (Revelation 7:9-10 WNT).
Not to their decision, but to His grace and mercy. Yes, Mike, every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus is Lord, to the glory of God!
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Continuing on the matter in a letter to a believer:
Terri, another thing struck me in considering your question: We have seen many people blaspheming the Holy Spirit, particularly in the last several years of our ministry, but never have any of those people been conscious of their sin, confessing it or asking for forgiveness. Not one. Why? Because they have been blinded and sealed for judgment by God, until their time and sentence is accomplished.
We haven't been able to pray or to ask forgiveness for any of such, like we did with you, for example, when you came confessing your sins. They are in “unrepentance,” as Victor has pointed out.
But notice that we do write and have things to say to these blasphemers, and not simply words of condemnation as we are unjustly accused. We have reasoned with them, given them Scriptures, and have plainly, patiently, and repeatedly laid out God's case against them in their sins. Why would He give us these things to say if there was no hope for them, forever and ever, time without end? What would be the point? As Paul said:
“If, in the manner of men, I fought with beasts at Ephesus, what is the benefit to me? If the dead are not raised, 'Let us eat and drink, for tomorrow we die!'” (1 Corinthians 15:32 EMTV).
No, we're given by God the power to speak to the beasts with holy purpose, to seal their judgment with the Truth, which is also the Seed of future redemption and resurrection unto life.
Paul
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Here's another response from Victor to an email asking about blasphemy against the Holy Spirit:
Hi Victor,
I recently came across your web site and have found myself drawn back to it time and again. I have read many of the teachings so far with great interest. I have many questions I would like to ask you. Let me start with one concerning ultimate reconciliation. You have laid out a very convincing argument, and I want to believe it is so. However, there is one passage of scripture which I find particularly troubling concerning this matter:
Mat 12:31 Wherefore I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men: but the blasphemy against the Holy Ghost shall not be forgiven unto men.
Mat 12:32 And whosoever speaketh a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whosoever speaketh against the Holy Ghost, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, neither in the world to come.
Also, what is the blasphemy of the Holy Ghost? And why is there no forgiveness for it? This is something I have never clearly understood.
Thank you for time and consideration.
Sincerely,
Craig
Victor replied:
Hi Craig,
There's no doubt Christ died for all and not just a few. There's no doubt that when He sets out to do something, He, being God, can't fail. There's no doubt that in the fullness of times, we will all see and experience the fruits of His doings.
Concerning your question on Matthew 12:31-32, the passage isn't a difficult one to understand, provided we make no assumptions based on preconceived notions. I just wrote this to another:
“Not believing the Lord and what He has told you edges toward that sin called “blasphemy against the Holy Spirit.” Its essence is unbelief. In unbelief, we can never be forgiven, whether in this world/age or the one to come. [Without faith, the Scripture says, it is impossible to please Him (Hebrews 11:6)].
“Unbelief is unbelief and it avails nothing anywhere. Indeed, concerning the Kingdom of God, it stops you cold. And if you deliberately decide to not believe Him, it becomes that sin, the unpardonable one, that blasphemy of the Holy Spirit.
“But contrary to popular opinion in nominal Christian circles, one can repent of this sin [by God's grace]. Repenting, that one will be forgiven. It isn't as though one can never cease that sin or never be forgiven for it.”
Craig, deliberate unbelief is the essence of sin. Choosing sin, there is no forgiveness, nor can there ever be, whether here or hereafter. It is essentially calling God a liar, the opposite of What or Who He is - Truth. When the religious called Jesus' works satanic, they were attributing His good works to evil-doers, calling Him a deceiver and refusing to honor Him for Who He is.
But is there no hope for blasphemers? You'll recall that Paul the apostle caused people to blaspheme:
“And I punished them often in every synagogue; I compelled them to blaspheme; and being exceedingly furious against them, I persecuted them even to the outside cities” (Acts 26:11 MKJV).
Paul confessed to being a blasphemer himself:
“And I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, Who strengthened me, because He counted me faithful, putting me into the ministry-- the one who before was a blasphemer and a persecutor and insolent. But I obtained mercy, because being ignorant, I did it in unbelief. And the grace of our Lord was exceedingly abundant, with faith and love in Christ Jesus” (1 Timothy 1:12-14 MKJV).
Paul wasn't just blaspheming against Christians, but also against the One Who dwelt in them, which was what made them saints (Christians). As Jesus asked Saul on the Damascus road, “Why do you persecute
Me?” (Acts 9:4). Jesus IS the Holy Spirit (Acts 20:28). If persecuting Him isn't blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, what is? Read also
The Baptism in the Holy Spirit and
Jesus Christ Is God.
If Paul was blaspheming against the Holy Spirit, against the Spirit of Christ, it is obvious there is forgiveness for that sin, seeing he was forgiven. Therefore, it isn't as though the sin continues forever and ever. If that were so, we would have to say that man's unbelief is greater than God's grace and power to overcome it.
Romans 5:17-21 MKJV
(17) For if by one man's offense death reigned by one, much more they who receive abundance of grace and the gift of righteousness shall reign in life by One, Jesus Christ.)
(18) Therefore as by one offense sentence came on all men to condemnation, even so by the righteousness of One the free gift came to all men to justification of life.
(19) For as by one man's disobedience many were made sinners, so by the obedience of One shall many be made righteous.
(20) But the Law entered so that the offense might abound.
But where sin abounded, grace did much more abound,
(21) so that as sin has reigned to death, even so grace might reign through righteousness to eternal life by Jesus Christ our Lord.
Craig, if God can't overcome the gravest of sins, He isn't omnipotent, and none of us has any hope of redemption. Therefore, blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is not that omnipotent sin that God is powerless to overcome. His grace is greater. Yes, it is the unforgivable sin, but then, God removes or overcomes it so that blasphemers can be forgiven and redeemed.
Remember, nothing is forever but the Lord Jesus Christ, the Alpha and the Omega. [END]
Does this help, Del? Set yourself to believing the Word of God. “So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God” (Romans 10:17 EMTV). Let us hear back from you.
Paul
From: Del
Sent: Tuesday, February 17, 2015 1:28 PM
To: Paul Cohen
Subject: Re: Help in understanding.
I guess I didn't back far enough in my letter earlier to you. I have in fact repented for forgiveness of my sins. It happened when I was on the couch here at home. I was the only one here and I felt the Lord convicting me. I cried out to Him and I received His mercy and grace. This was about a year ago before this situation I wrote you about.
Jesus says plainly that unless one leaves mother, father, house land, etc. you can not be my disciple. When I had said I was a worldy due to tradition of Christmas, I was referring to this being along with my wife and son (part of the worldy things I chose) is what caused my failure to go.
Remember when one of Christ followers ask Jesus if he could go back and bid his family farwell, and Christ told him that anyone having put his hand to the plow and looking back was not fit for the kingdom of God? Is this not biblical? The word also says that anyone who doesn't prepare himself would be cast out. I didn't prepare. No different then the 10 virgins. 5 being wise with enough oil to keep their lamps burning (I believe this is the light of the Holy Spirit representing the lamps) 5 also being foolish allowed their lamps to go out due to not bringing enough oil to keep their lamps burning bright.
I know that I know that I know that God started a Holy Spirit fire within me. But due to not being able to listen as a sheep should. I was more like the goat who wanted to do what I wanted to do. Since the Spirit of Grace has left me, I have lived nothing but hell on earth since, due to nothing but my own neglect and disobedience. I guess my biggest interest in your website was to find out if there is still a possible way to be with God in the end.
I know beyond all shadow of doubt that this was God calling me to go to Indy. Maybe as a test to see if I would go. Would he have then turned me back towards home and allowed me to continue on with my family? I am not sure.
My biggest question now is I have repented desperately to Him for not heeding His call. Will He have mercy on me for my short coming. I seen a ring of fire leave me after I disobeyed Him. Things feel apart after that. Now being taught everlasting hell fire from the time I was young I never really asked God much about this area. Now I believe that a torture chamber would be way out of God's character. So now I'm torn between annilation or restoration of all men. I see how both have good arguments through scriptures.
Forgot to write too that when I said about elect of discipleship, I guess the better way to put it was I was given the chance to be part of it. Many are called but few are chosen. No one can make me doubt that this was God. I heard Him strong in both my heart and conscience. Like I said my main interest was to look into final judgment of men and outcomes. Thanks.
Del
From: Paul Cohen
Sent: Thursday, February 19, 2015 7:39 AM
To: Del
Cc: Victor Hafichuk
Subject: Re[3]: Help in understanding.
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Jesus says plainly that unless one leaves mother, father, house land, etc. you can not be my disciple.”
Exactly the point in my letter, Del. You weren't even a disciple yet, however you claim the Lord was sending you off to preach. Where do you ever find that happening in the Bible?
To top it off, when you're found unwilling and unable to leave your family and preach, you say the Lord ditched you, leaving you in torment without correction, communication, or understanding. What kind of rational, loving and merciful God is that?
You describe a wicked, unreasonable and heartless tyrant - a devil, no less. You say you've repented “desperately,” but you're not sure if your god will show mercy. If that's the god you want and demand to have, what else is there that we can say or do for you? It certainly isn't the All-wise, Powerful God of Love we've known and served intimately for many years now, not at all.
We don't doubt the reality or your consequent conviction of your spiritual experience, not at all. But as real and convincing as it was, your experience has nothing at all to do with the God of the Bible. Satan comes as an angel of light to steal, kill and destroy. That's what happened.
Paul & Victor
From: Del
Sent: Thursday, February 19, 2015 9:06 AM
To: Paul Cohen
Subject: RE: Re[3]: Help in understanding.
Thank you again Paul for your reply. I would like to point out that I was most definitely in need of teachers as well. Being around the everyday ministers that we see within the churches, after seeing most of those teachings do not line up with scriptures. I believe that God was going to bring me in contact with those who are in the true faith of the word. When we are raised to believe a certain way, it is hard to break the habit so to speak.
As we read in the bible we notice that those who are true disciples, or the first fruits, they never lived within the system. In other words they didn't have jobs that consisted of the normal 9 to 5. They left their life they had and trusted solely on God above to provide. I believe this is still true today. Those who are of the first fruits in discipleship are out there living amongst us that we aren't even aware of. Take no thought for tomorrow for tomorrow will take care of itself. They don't have bank accounts and monthly bills. Like I said they rely solely on God above to provide for their everyday needs. These are the ones who will be allowed to reign 1000 years with Christ because they not only believed but they gave up everything.
My dispare didn't take place till after I didn't head the call. The word says that those who turn back to their own ways and rely on the cares of this world, God would sear their conscience with a hot iron. This is what happened after wards. Paul said in the word not to quench the Spirit. This is exactly what I did. Let us not be like those who draw back to perdition. Is this not what he said? He never said that once the Spirit was quenched that it would be able to be started up again in this life. The word says if we do such a thing then we have a certain fearful look of fiery judgment of indignation. Is this not correct?
I know or at least I knew what it was to see and feel how God above sees His wonderful creation of people. The fruits of the Spirit are love, joy, peace, long suffering, self control. This was what I felt before I had quenched the Spirit. Yes the flesh still wants to act out but with the Spirit it becomes way more manageable. Christ and all the disciples treated all people with love, regardless of their sinful nature. The corinthians had many many problems in their day, much like we see in our American churches today, yet he tried to teach and correct them with the utmost love. Love that can only come from a loving God above.
Christ became angry and upset with the Pharisees because of their self righteousness. We see this so much in our churches today. Even though I knew these pastors are way off base, only through the scriptures and the Holy Spirit reveling things to me, I still had a great deal of love for them anyway. I was trying to share the word of God at my work place and not seeing much result. I asked God way this was. It is a dry place. I was seeking to help souls in a dry place and when I was told to go to Indy, (and yes I think your right about not being prepared and also was in need of teaching and I believe God would have brought it all together had I listened) then I would have see results of souls being won to Christ.
Did God not choose the poor of this world? If someone gives up all they have for the cause of Christ then they become poor in the eyes of the world we live in but rich beyond all measure with God above. The devil uses counterfeits such as bring one to use sex, alcohol, etc. or anything else to cause us to sin. No where do I see 8 the bible where satan tells anyone to go try and reach the lost and tell them about Christ. Now he might tell them to teach believers that they can engage in any sinful conduct and still be ok with God. I most certainly see him doing that. But I'm sure the last thing satan wants is to see anyone saved to begin with.
As a matter of fact the 1st example of the parable of the sower shows that satan doesn't want a person to even believe in the 1st place. The stoney ground are those described as those that satan came so they couldn't be saved to even start out with. Satan would never fill a person with such a love and joy I had before this fall but after the fall he used it all against me.
God opens doors one at a time. Ask it it shall be opened, seek and you will find. If we aren't asking then we won't see. Being raised as I said to believe in eternal hell fire and it's teaching wasn't something I had ask God to open an sewers too so after my disobedience, satan used it completely against me, telling me I was eternally damned. It was after that I became oppressed not before. The joy that I had up to that point was as the word says, unspeakable. I believe that with every part of my being that this was from God above.
As I stated before, I only hope that He will have much mercy on me for me allowing my own ignorance to get in my way of His righteousness and truth. That inner peace and joy that He had instilled in me is nothing like it was. Yet I still do not want to go back to the old way of living that He has brought me out of. I have suffered much loss but I'm in hope that I can still spend my eternity with Him in a sin free world that is yet to come. I wasn't careful enough to listen and build wisely on the foundation of Christ but rather unwisely.
Paul I do really appreciate all the time you have taken out of your own time to write back to me. That really means a lot to me and is never taken lightly. May God bless you and Victor beyond all understanding and measure. Thank you.
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We didn't reply to this last letter because we saw you didn't believe us and there was nothing further to say. Now it appears your ears may be opening to listen to what the Lord has been saying through us. Can you see how He is showing you mercy and granting you grace?
Do read over these letters again, along with all the embedded links, setting aside your own understanding and looking to His. Keep reading on the site, and, if you will, take advantage of those things Victor outlined for you. Seek God's Kingdom and His righteousness in Christ.
Paul