Introduction by Carmen Chan

[Chan Kah Mum]

Hi ! My name is Carmen Chan. I'm 19 and i come from Malaysia. I was raised as a Christian since i was a child. My aunt would always fetch me and my younger brother to a Methodist church to learn about Jesus Christ. At that time, i don't understand the purpose of sending me to church. All we did was read the bible, memorize the bible verses (which i did not enjoy it much) , give our offering tithes to church and singing songs. At Sunday school, they teach us about how Jesus Christ went into the cross to die for our sins to save us. That part actually touched me as a kid. I would often ask Jesus to come into my heart to cleanse me from sin. I thought by asking like that He would come in. I was not sure whether He did it or not. I would follow others to pray because i don't know how to pray. I would just pray for myself and others for good health and good grades in my exam. I'm not really much of a true Christian. People told me that if you get baptized as a Christian in church , you are a child of God. I thought about it and did not do it because i have yet to believe in Jesus. So i did not get baptized. As i grew up, i began to distanced myself from church because of my self-esteem and was afraid of others laughing at me because of my size and weight. I quit going to church and began to walk in my own path of destruction. I indulge myself in computer entertainment and overeat to vent off my loneliness. I shut myself in a room from friends and families so that no one see me. i cut off myself from the world and go into my own world. I feel lost and helpless even now as well. Sometimes i wondered did God love enough to care about me ? Will He still love me as I am now ? Until i found your website , it was not about religion but Jesus Himself, i began to read the teachings though not really serious but continue to read your testimony and the others as well ( though i find it too long ). I was touched on how God change the lives for the better. I was moved and almost cried at your teachings. Perhaps God had lead me there to seek for the truth of Jesus Christ ? I'm not sure about it and still wondering if it is . If it is true, i am glad He lead me there. I'm still reading the teachings that is posted at this site and wanting to learn more about Him .

[Victor Hafichuk]

Hi Carmen,

You must ask God for His gift of faith. "Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find; knock and it shall be opened to you," said the Savior of all men, "for EVERYONE that asks, receives...."

"But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him" (Hebrews 11:6 MKJV).

Romans 10:6-11 MKJV
(6) But the righteousness of faith says this: "Do not say in your heart, Who shall ascend into Heaven?" that is, to bring Christ down;
(7) or "Who shall descend into the deep?"; that is, to bring up Christ again from the dead.
(8) But what does it say? "The Word is near you, even in your mouth and in your heart"; that is, the Word of Faith which we proclaim;
(9) Because if you confess the Lord Jesus, and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you shall be saved.
(10) For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth one confesses unto salvation.
(11) For the Scripture says, "Everyone believing on Him shall not be put to shame."

"And this is the confidence that we have toward Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of Him" (1 John 5:14-15 MKJV).

Carmen, respond to me.

[Chan Kah Mum]

Hi Victor, i apologize for the late reply. As I read your teachings, i feel there's a battle of conscience when i walk around places like the shopping mall. I can't really described it but i felt terrible and disgusted at myself and yet i wanted it even though it is wrong (for example food and the things i desired like clothes and handbags) people as well. I read the same teachings and it spoke to me more and more deeply and i felt overwhelmed and scared because i can't faced the truth. I don't know what to do and my mind keeps on telling to continue reading and accept it because it is the truth , no way a liar like me can denied it because who can argue or complain against the word of God. When i came across a poem called '' Desolation'' , it speaks to me in clarity. I don't know why and how it clicked. The weariness of this world , tired of the same things i see and do and hear what the adults said '' If you can't succeed in life, you can't go on, you will die''. ''What will you do without me, i raised you and feed you !". All the same thing that caused pain in my heart, i have to take medication because of my hormone imbalance and period problems because it has not been coming for 3 months (it has been like that a lot of times) , i have to see doctors that think taking the contraceptive pills will help. But it did not work. My mum keeps pressing me to see the doctor even if she is popular and bought a lot of medicines from the pharmacy which she believed it will cured me. But i grew sicked of all the medicines she bought . I thought '' How on earth am i going to finished all ?'' "It will definitely killed me !'' All the diet pills , hormone medicines and many of these scares me and i'm afraid of it's side effects. I feel pressured, i don't know what's going on with my body and mind. My mum blame me for not taking it and wasting her money of even buying things for me or raising me and my brother. She always wondered why her fate is bitter and terrible ? Why can't she had a perfect daughter like her friends ? Why does she married my useless father ?''Deep down , i'm not perfect and special nor do i have talents or confidence. I'm a worm, garbage , a weakling ,a disgrace and a liar to the family. Hope for me is gone. i want to ask God for faith in Him but i'm too afraid because of asking for the wrong motive. I don't know if my heart is honest or earnest to ask in His name because i'm a liar that does not deserve Him. I can't get down on my knees to do it and to ask a simple thing.

Carmen Chan

[Victor Hafichuk]

Carmen, you need to put your trust in the Lord Jesus Christ, Living and Present, with all authority and power in Heaven and earth. He is the Resurrection Life, and who believes on Him has eternal life. That eternal life overcomes the world, the flesh, and the Devil.

You say, i want to ask God for faith in Him but i'm too afraid because of asking for the wrong motive. I don't know if my heart is honest or earnest to ask in His name because i'm a liar that does not deserve Him. I can't get down on my knees to do it and to ask a simple thing.

Ask Jesus to give you the right motive, make your requests to Him, and leave it all in His hands. Trust Him. He isn't required to trust you. He well knows none of us is trustworthy or deserving of anything from Him. The reason He laid down His life and took it up again, the purpose of His salvation, is to MAKE us trustworthy, worthy of fellowship with Him.

You can't earn God's acceptance or favor. None of us is right before God (see Holy Waters: http://www.thepathoftruth.com/teachings/holy-waters.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false; ) - all men are sinners (Law breakers). Our natures are corrupt and only God can change us and deliver us from ourselves. Read these writings:

Confession of Sin: http://www.thepathoftruth.com/teachings ... of-sin.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;

The Bane of Bitterness http://www.thepathoftruth.com/teachings ... erness.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;

Forgiveness: http://www.thepathoftruth.com/teachings ... erness.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;

How One Is Saved: http://www.thepathoftruth.com/teachings ... -saved.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;

Obedience: http://www.thepathoftruth.com/teachings/obedience.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;

Repentance: http://www.thepathoftruth.com/teachings/repentance.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;

What Is Faith?: http://www.thepathoftruth.com/teachings ... ritual.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;

Who Then Can Be Saved?!: http://www.thepathoftruth.com/teachings ... esaved.htm" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;

Carmen, it would be good to get off your medications. Individually or especially in combination with each other, they are almost always detrimental, counterproductive, destructive, even dangerous. The medical and pharmaceutical industries are slaying many with their synthetic, toxic petroleum-derived concoctions that make them much profit, but which rarely bring honest, effective healing.

Sara has a suggestion for you. Sara?

Victor

[Sara V Schmidt]

Hi Carmen!

I agree with Victor about the pharmaceuticals. I've heard of various women having success with hormone issues when taking the herb Vitex consistently - it can be quite powerful in balancing female hormones.

If you need more help or information, feel free to send me a private message.

Sara

[Dennison Rivera]

Hi Carmen,

Just want to let you know that you are not alone! Endure!

[Chan Kah Mum]

Hi Dennison,

Thank you for the encouragement and support . I'm still struggling with unbelief and confusion (laziness as well) while spending time reading . All I wanted is to really learn to look up to the Lord in times of trouble and quit complaining about my life . Asking questions (which sometimes i hesitate ) about what is required in my life and to obey His commandments ( which I could'nt because I failed so many times ) through faith (if He is willing to give me) . Trusting Him and to also have true motive from the heart to ask the Lord .

[Corey Hedstrom]

Hi Carmen,

Thank you for sharing and being honest about things. How are things presently with you?

Corey