Seeking Earnest Believers
Posted: Mon Aug 21, 2017 11:17 pm
Hi, I'm a 38 year old male and the passage that I think describes my life most right now is this one:
"I have been deprived of peace; I have forgotten what prosperity is. So I say, 'My splendor is gone and all that I had hoped from the Lord.'" (Lam. 3:17-18.)
I became a christian in 1986 at the age of 7 but had an actual encounter with God at which time I was born again and baptized in the Spirit on March 28, 1998 at age 18. Due to abuse issues from my occult dad and demonization as a result, I have struggled since 1998 and have been homeless since 2003. I thought that I would go into any church and basically say, "Such and such is going on. I need help" and the christians would gather around me and do what the Bible says which is summed up as "Bear one another's burdens and so fulfill the Law of Christ" (Gal. 6:2). I couldn't be farther from the truth.
After God revealed that my dad is an occultist and part of an occult society (Freemasons a part of that), every inconsistency and issue I and my siblings had been having finally made sense and I insisted on getting deliverance at which time my dad kicked me out of the house on May 2, 2003 which was my 24th birthday. From that time till now, I wandered through up to thirty five different state seeking help and connection to caring believers. If I found any, they were so scared to do something that the rest of them weren't doing that I was constantly pushed out and abandoned and forced to survive on my own (or I could of course go to church still and just pretend that nothing was wrong which I wasn't going to do and so they didn't want me around). This has been very consistent, surprisingly so, from state to state. I was forced to wander and make my home among homeless shelters and halfway houses where the worldly and self-centered people didn't like me either; but they weren't near as cold as christians who, when I was around them, were reminded that their duty is to care for one another and so that made them at least twice worse than the people in the world.
At this time, since God had to convince me that He wants me to be a part of a caring fellowship that doesn't push away but accepts believers where they are and walk with each other, I am still seeking a fellowship or group of believers who will be a spiritual family. I have not found this yet. Churches, no matter how good, aren't set up to be family; on the other hand, the way church is set up causes it to oppose God and His Kingdom without even knowing it. christians in these churches have accused me of being in the wrong (because their consciences were pricked when they realized they didn't want to lend any help) and have blamed me for not being able to "do it yourself" (DIY christianity as I call it) because after all "I can do all things through Christ". So I am seeking believers who are honest and don't twist the Bible and God's character just because they are not willing to live by them. I am currently in West Virginia in a motel room and tomorrow back on the streets. Anyone who knows anything about something real in the way of believers and fellowship, please let me know.
"I have been deprived of peace; I have forgotten what prosperity is. So I say, 'My splendor is gone and all that I had hoped from the Lord.'" (Lam. 3:17-18.)
I became a christian in 1986 at the age of 7 but had an actual encounter with God at which time I was born again and baptized in the Spirit on March 28, 1998 at age 18. Due to abuse issues from my occult dad and demonization as a result, I have struggled since 1998 and have been homeless since 2003. I thought that I would go into any church and basically say, "Such and such is going on. I need help" and the christians would gather around me and do what the Bible says which is summed up as "Bear one another's burdens and so fulfill the Law of Christ" (Gal. 6:2). I couldn't be farther from the truth.
After God revealed that my dad is an occultist and part of an occult society (Freemasons a part of that), every inconsistency and issue I and my siblings had been having finally made sense and I insisted on getting deliverance at which time my dad kicked me out of the house on May 2, 2003 which was my 24th birthday. From that time till now, I wandered through up to thirty five different state seeking help and connection to caring believers. If I found any, they were so scared to do something that the rest of them weren't doing that I was constantly pushed out and abandoned and forced to survive on my own (or I could of course go to church still and just pretend that nothing was wrong which I wasn't going to do and so they didn't want me around). This has been very consistent, surprisingly so, from state to state. I was forced to wander and make my home among homeless shelters and halfway houses where the worldly and self-centered people didn't like me either; but they weren't near as cold as christians who, when I was around them, were reminded that their duty is to care for one another and so that made them at least twice worse than the people in the world.
At this time, since God had to convince me that He wants me to be a part of a caring fellowship that doesn't push away but accepts believers where they are and walk with each other, I am still seeking a fellowship or group of believers who will be a spiritual family. I have not found this yet. Churches, no matter how good, aren't set up to be family; on the other hand, the way church is set up causes it to oppose God and His Kingdom without even knowing it. christians in these churches have accused me of being in the wrong (because their consciences were pricked when they realized they didn't want to lend any help) and have blamed me for not being able to "do it yourself" (DIY christianity as I call it) because after all "I can do all things through Christ". So I am seeking believers who are honest and don't twist the Bible and God's character just because they are not willing to live by them. I am currently in West Virginia in a motel room and tomorrow back on the streets. Anyone who knows anything about something real in the way of believers and fellowship, please let me know.