It's been a while since we've heard from you. It sounds like you're coming to the end of yourself and what you can do without the Lord. He has brought you here because you need Him.
“I woke up from a sleep one day and heard the audible voice say, 'You cannot serve two masters.' Oh boy do I know what that means! Stuck is how I feel, and honestly, not giving up the things I need too.
Do you know what you specifically need to give up? Have you realized you need the Lord's gift of Repentance
, in order to turn from your ways to His, with power to perform His?
One serves the things of this world because she serves herself. The Lord has come to turn you to Himself, His saving power and ways, doing as He spoke of in the ministry given to the apostle Paul:
“In order to open their eyes so that they may turn from darkness to light, and from the authority of Satan to God, so that they may receive remission of sins and an inheritance among those who are sanctified by faith in Me” (Acts 26:18).
Those sanctified in Christ no longer serve themselves, the world, and Satan. They are made free to serve the Lord, and what freedom that is!
If you're spotting the phonies now, it's because the Lord has shown you favor and given you light. No doubt the Harfouches and Katie Souza are false teachers, despite their sincerity and impressive works, if they have any. They're not founded on the Rock, the revelation and faith of Christ. If they were, they wouldn't be producing the evil fruits they do, and teaching self-serving in the Name of the One Who calls us to lay down our lives.
We don't deny that Ray Prinzing said many true things (as with most false teachers, to varying degrees), but you can also see by what we've published that he produced evil fruits, because he was in all evil himself, unrepentant and unregenerate.
As for Paul's affliction, read God Heals Today, His Way
, specifically the portion under Paul entitled “His Thorn in the Flesh.”
You say about your husband and yourself:
“My husband is retired. He believes, but... He's not consumed 24/7 like me. In traffic even if I lose it, I immediately ask for forgiveness.
This reminds me of Job, whose conscience was tender and diligent in many things before he saw the Lord and repented in dust and ashes.
As for your question, not all who receive the Spirit speak in tongues, as Paul wrote to the Corinthians:
1 Corinthians 12:29-31
(29) Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Are all workers of power?
(30) Do all have gifts of healings? Do all speak languages? Do all interpret?
(31) But zealously strive after the better gifts [ones that edify others]. And yet I show to you a more excellent way.
And certainly what you see in the churches of men is confusion with many speaking at tongues, even at the same time. The Scriptures they profess to uphold demonstrate this is so:
“But in the church I would rather speak five words with my understanding, in order that I may instruct others, rather than ten thousand words in an unknown tongue. Brothers, do not be children in your understanding; rather, in malice be children, but in understanding be men” (1 Corinthians 14:19-20).
Not to mention that most of what is passed off as the gift of tongues in churches isn't of God. You need to be cleansed in the Truth, Kat, your mind renewed in the knowledge of Him in faith
according to His will.
Regarding the dream you had as a young lady, what's happened with your sister and her kids since you had it? And how did you perceive the lady speaking to you in the dream was Mary?