Particle – Seeking Signs, Fornication, and
Paul had become a believer before he and Alison married. He told me
that he had been sleeping with her before marriage, and he had asked
God for a sign as to whether they should marry or not. One night, he
asked that, if they were not to be married, Alison would wake in the
morning facing away from him, but if they were to marry, that she would
wake facing him.
“She woke facing me,” Paul said, arguing that he received
a sign from God as requested, thus proving that Alison was to be his
In this way, Paul confirmed what I was seeing. I now began to understand
the implications of what I first saw of them, when viewing the room next
to ours. It became more and more evident that I would have to deliver
a message to him that I didn’t want to deliver. I struggled, wondering
if I was right, but I realized the Lord required it of me to speak and
I would have no peace until I did.
Paul and Alison weren’t supposed to have been married. Marriage
license or not, they were living in fornication as far as the Lord was
concerned, and I had to break the news to them that Paul was to forsake
I tried to communicate subtly to him, hoping he would come to the realization
on his own, but it didn’t happen. I was afraid that if this message
was clearly recognized by others in the community as coming from me,
my name in Revivim would be mud. Likely we would be expelled from the
kibbutz, and if so, our hopes of remaining as citizens in Israel would
As I hesitated and time passed, I knew we would have to risk the contempt
of the community and forsake living in Israel, if I was to successfully
deliver the message to Paul. Now the informal training of communicating
I had received at Arc Industries with the mentally handicapped would
bring forth some of its value. I had to make myself very clear.
“Paul, two things,” I finally said. “One, believers
are not to be yoked with unbelievers. That is what the Bible says.”
I then quoted:
“Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers; for what
fellowship does righteousness have with lawlessness? And what partnership
does light have with darkness? And what agreement does Christ have with
Belial? Or what part does a believer have with an unbeliever?” (2
Corinthians 6:14-15 MKJV).
I continued, “You two weren’t married when you became a
believer. You married Alison after you became a believer, which was contrary
to God’s counsel.
“Two, you asked God for a sign but what does Jesus say about signs?”
I quoted Matthew 16:4:
and adulterous generation seeks after a sign. And there shall no
sign be given to
it, except the sign of the prophet Jonah. And
He left them and went away.”
I continued, “You asked for a sign, but God plainly says He doesn’t
give signs. So then, what of the supposed sign you received? Either it
was coincidental (there is no evidence of a miracle, as with Gideon’s
fleece), or the sign came from a source other than God. Satan would be
glad to furnish you with a sign, and would have the license to do so,
seeing you sought one against God’s will. Satan comes with all
power, signs, and lying wonders.”
I provided him with:
“He will use everything that God disapproves of to deceive those
who are dying, those who refuse to love the truth that would save them.
That’s why God will send them a powerful delusion so that they
will believe a lie. Then everyone who did not believe the truth, but
was delighted with what God disapproves of, will be condemned” (2
Thessalonians 2:10-12 GW).
I said, “Paul, you need to leave Alison. She is not your wife.”
He looked at me as though he didn’t want to hear it. “I
love Alison,” Paul returned.
I said, “Yes, you love her, as Solomon loved many wives he wasn’t
supposed to love.”
Paul broke the news to Alison, at first not as a decision, but as a
matter of discussion, still not prepared to take the step of obedience.
News spread quickly through Revivim, and soon, Alison was the victim,
Paul was the dupe, and I was the villain (to bystanders without knowledge,
this would be understandable).
We talked with Alison. While she was dismayed and wanted to continue
as Paul’s wife, she honestly declared she didn’t agree with
Paul’s bearing witness to the Lord, particularly among Jews. More
specifically, she reiterated her disagreement with posting the article
he did in the paper on the meaning of Yom Kippur.
We took into consideration another passage in Scripture in light of
1 Corinthians 7:12-15 MKJV
(12) But to the rest I speak, not the Lord, If any brother has
a wife who does not believe, and she is pleased to dwell with him,
do not let him put her away.
(13) And the woman who has a husband who does not believe, if he
is pleased to dwell with her, do not let her leave him.
(14) For the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the wife, and
the unbelieving wife is sanctified by the husband; else your children
would be unclean, but now they are holy.
(15) But if the unbelieving one separates, let him be separated.
A brother or a sister is not in bondage in such cases, but God has called
us in peace.
While Alison was pleased to dwell with Paul as a man in the world, was
she pleased to dwell with him as a witness of Christ? Of which pleasing
does Paul speak? More importantly, what if they weren’t supposed
to have been married in the first place?
Particle – Crossroads
A song was given to me at this time for Paul concerning his decision.
(Click HERE to listen to “Crossroads,” or
to read the lyrics.)
Particle - U.S. Entangles Itself with Muslim
Paul related to us a dream he had in 1979. He writes:
“Around the time the Muslims
took over the U.S. embassy in Iran, I had a dream wherein I was watching
a U.S. helicopter in an Arab/Muslim
country hovering over a city with its ladder descended and soldiers
starting to go down it. I tried to, or wanted to, warn them not to
go down as
I knew it was a trap and felt great anxiety for them. But it seemed
I had no way to warn them off; they were determined to enter, and did.
Immediately I felt a sense of doom, because there was no easy reversal
after this commitment, and I feared they were going to get the
Victor’s note at time of posting, in 2012: I
see the Iraq invasion as the fulfillment of this dream.
Particle – The Word of the Lord by Marilyn
One day when I was away from home, Paul dropped in and talked to Marilyn.
She asked him when he was going to leave Alison. “I am going to
wait and see when the time is right. Maybe the Lord will have more to
show me,” he said. Marilyn replied, “You won’t
be hearing from the Lord anymore.”
Paul tells us that those words greatly impacted him and that he knew
what he had to do. He believed that what was spoken was from the Lord,
decided to obey Him, told Alison what he had to do, and she told others.
Particle – The Desert
One day, Marilyn and I took a hike into the desert. I loved the dunes,
wadis, sand, stones, succulents, solitude, sun, sunset, and even the
scarcity of serpents. I loved everything - as long as there wasn’t
too much of it! In part because of the landscape, and in part because
of the troubles brewing in the kibbutz and threats of violence from some
young American Jews, I was inspired to write a poem, “The Desert.”
We lived in a literal desert in Israel, and within my soul, I could
feel all the things expressed; we were in a desert in our spiritual lives,
a desert through which all pilgrims on the journey to the City of God
This poem was prophetic of events that would shortly come to pass as
we spoke the Word of God to Paul, whom the Lord had given us to be our
The desert is dry and parched, and I am hot and thirsty;
We two have been matched as partners in this stretch of our history.
The sun’s scorching face is forceful enough; from it I find no
No shade, no water, no nightfall to comfort my soul in its wearisome
Miles and miles of burning sand, I scarcely know where it began.
It started with greenery, then greenery and sand, and now it’s
sand upon sand.
After some miles I’ve trodden and feel I can go no farther,
A trickle of water comes out of a rock, destined for that very hour.
With leanness of soul and hungering for life, not a soul for months
All my possessions have slowly been lost, ‘til much lighter my
journey has been.
It’s strange how the harder the trials, the sweeter the life becomes;
Easier the life filled with comforts, the more ensnared in this wild.
Many storms form on the horizon, threatening I know not what,
And only the odd one materializes to give me the wisdom I’ve sought.
With serpents threatening my life, and insects disturbing my peace,
I travel over jagged and treacherous rocks and long, from this desert,
Many mirages promise me life, yet they are at a distance,
But somehow I’m learning the difference between what appears to
be real and what is.
I can’t tell how much longer this wilderness journey will be;
I know only this: I can’t turn back, not while I have yet to be
Methinks I’ve seen circling above, those wretched birds of prey,
Who hover and wait so endlessly, for their opportune day.
But I believe in the One Who has promised to keep me until the Day,
And when it comes, it’ll be by His choosing, and with Him I’ll
arrive to stay.
Particle – Three and a Half Years
I didn’t realize it then, but from the time the Lord spoke
to me in the log cabin at the end of March 1976, to the time I spoke to
Paul at the end of September 1979 was three and a half years. This specific
time measure is mentioned in both Daniel and Revelation.
How did I link these two events? It was many years before I made the
connection and realized the significant implications. There was no study
or calculation - it was only a matter of revelation.
Particle - The Yogurt Hits the Fan
Revivim, being disturbed by our influence, as they perceived it, immediately
assigned Marvin, an American Jew, to do some sleuthing to gather evidence
and analyze our activities. He didn’t once come to speak to us
or to Paul, though he spoke to many others.
The leaders decided that I was proselytizing - converting Jews to Christianity
- something they abhorred. Within days, they arranged for a hearing to
determine what they would do with us. While it’s true I had talked
to others about the Lord, even as Paul had, I didn’t proselytize
Paul - he had become a Christian the year before. This didn’t matter
Particle – Judgment One Way or Another
There were a few young American Jewish men, Matt and Baruch (two troubled
and potentially violent boys), and two others, who threatened to take
matters into their own hands and do us violence to force us out of Revivim,
all because of my message to Paul.
Meanwhile, Barry, a supervisor, arranged for the director
of the ulpan program for Israel to come from Tel Aviv and preside
at a hearing two days hence. We had previously met him and received his
approval to come to the ulpan in Revivim. I liked him.
Particle – Fourth Eviction for the Faith
The hearing had a foregone conclusion. By then I was realizing that
we had come to Israel, not to live, but to speak to Paul. Our job was
They gave us three days to leave Revivim. Marilyn came to tears, and
Barry was very happy to see this happen to us. It seemed he was quite
bitter toward Gentiles and nominal Christians. When we graciously accepted
their decision, saying we understood their feelings and position, his
countenance fell; our reaction seemed to rob him of satisfaction.
Particle – Parting Words with Paul
We advised Paul that he needed to obey the Lord without delay, though
we didn’t expect him to leave with us. We decided to go back to
Hotel Nes Ziona in Tel Aviv and told Paul where we could meet, warning
him not to tell anyone where we were or to allow himself to be followed.
We then took the next vehicle out of Revivim, two days before the deadline
Particle – Experience No Guarantee of Learning
Some volunteers were in awe over what was happening and remarked that
they felt judgment coming to Revivim for what they had done to us.
There was another Gentile from the U.S., David, who had been a prominent
and responsible volunteer at Revivim, though not in the ulpan. He was
also editor of the kibbutz paper, in which Paul’s letter and my
poem, “The Desert,” were published. We heard later that he
publicly questioned the justice of our expulsion and wondered how it
was that Jews could practice such intolerance, given the history of their
victimization in like manner. They had granted us no rights or benefit
of doubt as defendants.
Particle – Rendezvous
We decided to go back to Moshav Habonim to let our friends know that
we were expelled from Revivim and that we wouldn’t be returning
to Habonim. It seemed that the news had gone ahead of us, though there
was nothing mentioned - nobody seemed willing to talk about it. The atmosphere
was unsettling, and I realized there was nothing I could do about it,
given the circumstances.
At Habonim, Artur had befriended us, and now he was hurt. He walked
away, thinking we had been proselytizing, and that, in an underhanded
way. He seemed to feel betrayed. I knew there was nothing we could do
but pay the price of ignominy. I hoped that some day in the future, Artur
would understand and recognize me as a friend (now 32 years later, it
hasn’t happened, not that I expected it would). We left, sadly,
with hopes dashed, yet relieved it was over, and headed for Tel Aviv.
Particle – Pitiful Pettiness on My Part
Notwithstanding the sadness, I was petty, resentful, and stubborn. When
we had first arrived at Habonim, being judged to be wimps, they put us
to work the first day, though Marilyn was still ill and we had to clean
our filthy living quarters before we began work elsewhere. When later
volunteers came, we discovered the policy of Habonim was to acclimatize
newcomers, giving them a day of leisurely introduction and touring.
There was a daily allowance paid to all volunteers, which, adding insult
to injury, we didn’t get for the first day we worked because we
weren’t supposed to be working! While the allowance was a pittance,
I told Mr. Hooker, the bookkeeper, that I wanted it for both my wife
and me. While he was willing to pay, he gently chided me, saying that
the idea of volunteering was to participate in, and contribute to, the
kibbutz way of life. I ignored his counsel and took the money. I wish
I hadn’t done it. I see no good purpose having been served.
Particle – Comes Half a Man
Back in Tel Aviv, we sat in front of the Nes Ziona, wondering if Paul
would soon obey and meet us. A day or two later, there he was, coming
down the sidewalk. As he approached, I saw a man as though cut in half.
Paul was spiritually crippled. He seemed like someone trying to walk
out of an operating room after major surgery.
While I had compassion for him, and the sight wasn’t a pleasant
one, I knew it had to be the way it was. Marilyn and I never doubted
it, though such a spectacle might have caused us to exclaim, “Oh,
God! What have we done?!”
Paul informed us he told Alison that he had to leave her. She was distressed
and called Paul’s and her parents in America. David Cohen was on
his way immediately.
Meanwhile, we planned to fly back to Winnipeg, Manitoba almost immediately.
Why Winnipeg? I don’t know, except it was in my heart to go there.
We could have gone anywhere; there were no compelling ties.
We visited with Paul and shared what we could with him concerning life
and his spiritual walk. We took him to the Mediterranean Sea near the
Sheraton at Tel Aviv and water baptized (immersed) him in the Name of
Jesus Christ, praying that he would receive the Spirit. The Lord said, “Paul
will receive the Spirit at a time in the future.”
Particle – Banking Strike and Flight Delay
Stop Us Twice
We knew that people, particularly Paul’s father, would be searching
for us, and decided to avoid trouble by leaving the country, but we were
stopped. There was a strike involving the banks, and our money wasn’t
available. We didn’t even have money to pay our hotel bill. The
manager told us not to worry about it, that we could send him payment
when we had the money. We appreciated that.
This gave us several more days with Paul, which we later realized he
had much needed. God met that need, and He assured us that though danger
threatened, we were safe.
In a few days, the strike was over; we bid our farewells and told Paul
he might find us in Winnipeg. He took his plane for the States, and we
were bussed to ours at the Ben Gurion Airport; however, our flight was
suddenly delayed, so we went back to Tel Aviv.
They put us up at the Tel Aviv Sheraton in pleasant, comfortable rooms
and provided the best buffet I have ever experienced - a wide variety
and excellently prepared and presented.
That evening we shared with a Jewish couple in their fifties, who had
a hard time receiving things I had to say, but couldn’t refute
them (I don’t recall what they were). The next day, our flight
took us to Copenhagen, Denmark, where we were put up for another night
in a good hotel.
Particle – Social, Climatic, and Spiritual
Coming off the plane, the cool October air of Denmark was invigorating,
compared to the dry desert heat of Israel. We were also feeling the refreshing
freedom to come and go independently, unlike the socialistic, restrictive
atmosphere of a kibbutz. And we felt safer out of Israel, not threatened
by people seeking to do us harm.
Particle – Trouble Everywhere
The next morning in Copenhagen, before our flight was to leave, we took
a stroll and came by a city park that was frequented by drug addicts,
dreamily, pitifully begging for handouts. The place was messy and desolate.
We saw the corruption of the world, and death slowly strangling what
we have called civilization.
Particle – Back in Canada; Now What?
Returning unexpectedly from Israel to Winnipeg in October of 1979, what
were we to do? Where were we to go? I decided to call my old college
and Amway acquaintances, Marvin and Marietta Mielke.
I recalled that they were involved in a group called “The Move
of God,” or just “The Move,” started by Sam Fife, a
former Southern Baptist become Charismatic. I heard they had some peculiar
Their main unusual doctrines were that they didn’t believe in
the literal, physical, historical, personal return of Jesus Christ in
His own private resurrected body. They taught that Jesus Christ comes
in His people, who are His Body, which not only made sense to me, but
also stirred in me as a spiritual revelation.
Furthermore, they gathered to live in communities, be they large rooming
houses or “end-time farms” in Canada and the U.S.
They didn’t celebrate Christmas, watch TV, or wear makeup, and
paid attention to the moral aspects of hair care and clothing, among
Particle – Temporary Home
with Mielkes and “The
Marvin readily received us, so we grabbed a cab from the airport to
their place in Elmwood. (I realize now that there was a Marvin that worked
to get rid of us in Israel and now we were being received by a Marvin – I
recall a similar situation with the two
Gordons when I left Riverbend
School to attend Dauphin Plains.)
Another couple, Harold Sibley, his wife and three or four children lived
with the Mielkes. He was a former Anglican priest turned Charismatic
and was consequently expelled by the Anglican Church. And there were
two young bachelors, Hiram and Klaus. Marv offered us to stay in their
community home until we found our own. Undoubtedly, they were hoping
we would join them.