“Write down for the coming generation what the LORD has done,
so that people not yet born will praise Him” (Psalms 102:18
“There is nothing hidden that will not be revealed. There
is nothing kept secret that will not come to light” – Jesus
Christ (Luke 8:17 GW).
“I saw the dead, both important and unimportant people, standing
in front of the throne. Books were opened, including the Book of
Life. The dead were judged on the basis of what they had done, as
recorded in the books” (Revelation 20:12 GW).
“For what is your life? For it is a vapor, which appears for
a little time, and then disappears” (James 4:14 MKJV).
Particle –Why My Theo-autobiography
The story of any human life can have value for others. How much
more when the understanding is opened to the inner workings of God?
This book is more about His doing than mine - it will be more “Theo” than “auto.” Perceiving
that the Lord has worked in and with me for many years, I would like
to tell the world about it, mostly with the hope that many others
will also be led to believe and be made free, finding fulfillment
and peace in the Prince of Peace, Almighty God.
The most important reason to write my autobiography is to testify
of the Lord Jesus Christ, Whom I have first found to be, then found
to be faithful and true, and finally found to be the
Lord God and Creator of all. (Don’t allow yourself to be lost now, unbeliever;
hang in there; I promise you are in for something very different.
You’ll receive fresh meaning on the saying, “You can’t
judge a book by its cover.”) I am writing to report to you
that He proves His existence and His authority, and He identifies
His True Nature in the pages of this book.
Particle –What Is This?
An autobiography is primarily the story of a person’s life.
A Theo-autobiography is about two lives in one, separate, yet together.
It is the personal recounting of one’s life before becoming
a Christian and the struggle and miracle of actually becoming a new
creature, a Christian by God’s, not man’s, definition.
A Theo-autobiography is the story of God implanting His nature in
a soul, with all the experiential implications and challenges this
miraculous process presents to the one being born again. The new
creature must contend with the old nature, until God’s metamorphosis
is complete. Then the wolf lies down with the lamb, and a new son
of God sits on His throne with Him. This all happens in a world of “Christian
believers” – be they real, pretend, imaginary, religious,
philosophical, psychological, social, political, hot, cold, or lukewarm.
Particle –What Can This Book Do For You?
This book is unique, particularly so. There are precious valuables
here for every person, no matter their age, sex, education, financial,
social, or marital status, race, religion, experience, beliefs, background,
environment, upbringing, handicaps, or whatever other factors may
be involved - even death and deadness. Death is no barrier to God;
the dead can be quickened by the Spirit of Truth.
What the Lord Has Done with Me will:
Prove the reality of a Higher Power far above
us – known
as God to most,
Pique the interest of every reader,
Surprise and confound many,
Cause many to scoff and scorn,
Cause others to fear,
Embarrass and alarm several, and even
It will do all these things for those who have something to hide,
who live in pretense and wish to keep, and possibly forget, their
For others, hopefully many, it will:
Expose falsehood and break its power,
Release souls from manmade religion,
Enlighten with Reality,
Lift the burdens of guilty consciences,
Displace despair with genuine hope,
Instill true faith,
Encourage people to bring
their faults, mistakes, and wrongdoings to the light, and
Usher them into abundant supply of long-lasting veritable sustenance
for body, soul, and spirit.
This Theo-autobiography will bring the reader face-to-face with
the realities of life, candidly confessed and reported. It will bring
the reader face-to-face with God Himself, if God is willing. It will
declare the actual, undeniable works of God. It will publish the
naked truth about the author and those close to him, as well as about
others. One will see the unmistakable, indisputable sovereign Hand
of God on record, proving a Superior Intelligence perfectly concerned
about, involved in, and in control of, all existence.
One may see that though the author and others have had favor with
God, one man or woman is no different in basic nature from any other
in all of history. We are all cut from the same cloth. It is my hope
that people will be encouraged with this assurance and brought to
freedom by the light of truth, recognizing that they have nothing
to fear but God Himself, in a healthy, profitable, and fulfilling
It is likely that some will pick up this book, start into it, and
drop it, prejudging that it has nothing for them. They may be like
a prospector who finds the labor tedious and quits, though gold may
lie just inches or feet below him (believe me, it is there). Some
undiscerning souls might mistake the gold for iron pyrite (believe
me, it is not).
Given the diversity of human nature, it is conceivable that some
may read this book and discern very little, like persons at a garage
sale picking up and putting down again valuable antiques selling
for a pittance (in this case, set in a freebie box). This book, however,
is full of something potentially precious for everyone. Whether he
or she recognizes it or not, the reader will not walk away empty.
Nobody can walk away from this true story, filled with lessons, principles,
counsel, and honesty, and be the same.
It must be acknowledged that there may be errors, notwithstanding
every effort to avoid them, in minor details, statistics, names,
or spelling of names. The reports are true, however, at least from
the perspective of the writer, related as honestly as he knows how
and is able.
If anyone finds an error, please let us know; we will appreciate
it and take immediate steps to correct it.
Particle –Nothing to Be Proud of
I hang my head in shame. I have absolutely nothing to be proud of.
Such a fool have I been in all my ways. Indeed, when I look on mankind,
we have all been fools, every one, but I have often seen myself as
a principal one.
I have no virtue or greatness in any way, shape, or form. I tell
you this in all honesty and conviction. I have achieved nothing.
I have not excelled. I have won nothing. I have done no good or noteworthy
thing. I have been the proverbial born loser to this very day. I
look at my life and, but for the grace of God and what the Lord has
done for me, it is a total devastating waste.
I have only one Saving Element and God is It. He has done something
with me that cannot be explained; it is impossible to explain away,
and it is simply amazing. So I write. I write to show you that He
takes dirt in His hand and, by His power and wisdom, makes of it
what He will. When He is done, we can only stand in awe of His skill,
wisdom, and purpose.
Those who choose to be atheists and evolutionists, beware. Read
this book and your beliefs will be entirely without excuse – not
because I am, or have done, anything, but because He has, and you
will see it.
All those who think they believe will realize how little they believe.
And those who truly believe will, Lord willing, be very thankful
for this book. They will get a glimpse of the One in Whom they have
believed and will be glad, and they may well treasure this book above
Particle –The Sour with the Sweet
I look back on many things recorded here with shame and regret.
Why do I talk about them? There is a lot of dirty laundry here, along
with the precious and wonderful. I talk about my sins, problems,
weaknesses, faults, and struggles, to alert others to the fact that
these things are common among many.
Also, people are sometimes led to believe that some of these things
are not so bad, and perhaps even commendable. It is thought that
we should no longer live in a prudish, moralistic age, but in an “advanced,
enlightened” one “liberated” of ignorant and oppressive
psychological, social, religious, moralistic, and legal handicaps.
That thinking is nothing new. In all ages, the lawless have hated
discipline and truth.
I wish not to hide anything I should be transparent about. Seekers
of life and truth need to know they can also be free, no matter who
they are. I was not always the pious believer (if now), much less
a preacher. I was not born with faith in God. I was every bit in
the dark and corrupt as the next person. And people need to know
that the next person is every bit as capable of corruption as I.
I deal with dirty laundry to give hope to those who bear guilt in
these things, perhaps thinking there is no hope for them. I want
everyone to know that we carry a burden of guilt when we indulge
in wrongful things, and we are impacted adversely in every way, perhaps
for an entire lifetime and beyond, often without knowing it.
I have learned, and the Scriptures testify very clearly, that we
are all corrupt creatures, full of every vile thing possible (and
I will prove it). But God, in His chosen time, is quite willing and
able, indeed desirous and committed, to redeem and change us for
the better, to His glory. He takes care of the dirtiest of laundry,
The names in this book are not changed to protect anyone, as is
so common in many publications. Many names are mentioned, which means
that many of these events will be verifiable. It will demonstrate
that all people and the things they think, say, and do are more important
than they may realize, that all their actions, anywhere, in any circumstance
- including those seemingly insignificant ones - do not go unnoticed,
forgotten, ignored, unrecorded, or without impact.
Why else mention names, whether relating “good” or “bad”?
It is done to demonstrate that there is freedom possible for anyone,
such that one comes to fear nothing. It is then possible to talk
of these things from a standpoint of victory, and not defeat.
Though I am ashamed of many of these things, I am free of them.
Another’s knowledge of them does not threaten me. I want those
who are ashamed and threatened by exposure to know they can also
be free, and indeed must be. There is nothing to lose but loss itself.
Kris Kristofferson’s words in “Me and Bobby Magee” are
so true: “Freedom’s just another word for nothing left
Particle –Total Forgiveness for All, None Excepted
I wish to assure all persons mentioned that I bear them no ill will,
only unconditional forgiveness. If one is not prepared to hear the
truth about him or herself, he or she will surely be offended by
what I have recorded of them; that is human nature. The forgiveness
I have for them will only be enjoyed when they experience a true
change of heart, which only God can accomplish.
This book is as much, if not more, for the “bad” guy
as for the “good.” I want the bad guys to know there
really aren’t any good guys when it comes right down to it – lots
of self-righteous, pretentious, and religious ones, yes, but good?
No, not until God does something with us - and He can, does, and
will. Religion has nothing to do with it. Your turn will come, too.
In the long run, He isn’t leaving anybody out.
Everyone needs to
know that there is no permanent place to hide; exposure and paying
the piper are inevitable.
Particle –Children Are Not Children
Take the time to teach your children and warn them
against the things of which I write. The sins of childhood are not
erased or forgotten,
unless God makes it happen. The evil deeds
of our childhood come with us into the future as heavy and
cumbersome baggage. There is a Scripture I have found, to my chagrin,
“Rejoice, in your youth, young man; and let your heart cheer
you in the days of your youth, and walk in the ways of your heart,
and in the sight of your eyes; but know that for all these things
God will bring you into judgment. Therefore remove vexation from
your heart, and put away evil from your flesh; for childhood and
prime of life are vanity” (Ecclesiastes 11:9-10 MKJV).
Concerning wrong, it is not only a matter of what children do, but
also of what is done to them. Adults assume they will get away with
what they do to young naïve, innocent children because they
don’t understand at the time. Not so! First of all, God knows
and requites man for every deed (I know). Be assured, offenses against
fellow man, no matter the age of the victim, bring consequences,
and the price is never worth it.
Children also have remarkable memories from infancy,
and while they cannot understand what is happening at first, there
is a very good
chance they will remember, and as they grow in knowledge and understanding,
they will realize the implications of what happened to them. Through
trials in later life, I have received recall of things I suffered
from as early as approximately four months of age. Not that
there was deliberate evil perpetrated.
I believe that in significant ways, children are adults from the
womb. They have far more ability and comprehension than we imagine.
Like an acorn that contains an oak tree, children need only develop
what is already there. None ought to dare take them for granted at
Not the Day of Small Things”
On a final note, I want to give the reader what I consider to be
an important truth, something that I, at 60, have only recently come
to realize. This truth will especially benefit those who have yet
a goodly stretch of life remaining, Lord willing. The truth is:
Appreciate that the big things you are looking for are happening
right now, most often in the cloak of insignificance.
All things happening in our lives are important and
serve to form, not only our memories, but also our very character
and nature. We
do not realize their value or importance until years later. The reason
I urge the reader on this is because I have spent my life looking
forward to big things happening, and now realize I was not appreciative
of the big things as they were happening, judging them to be insignificant.
Our time is very short on earth, because the earth is but a bridge
from one realm to another. I tell young people in their teens and
twenties, “Tomorrow you will be 60; it will be that fast.” Don’t
look for the fulfillment of your imagination or hope of God’s
great purpose for your life. His purpose is happening, as you exist,
in every moment. Accept it, embrace it, drink it in, attend to it,
and yield to it.